So I've found out the hard way how to deal with immense amounts of sadness. I deal with it on a regular basis, being that my boyfriend and I live apart while I'm at school (at least for the time being). I've found out today, however, that by writing down what I did that day with him (if I was with him), then I was able to find more joy than every before and, even more so, appreciate the time spent together. So here's my first day of doing this haha, you guys don't have to enjoy it, it's just something for myself. And if it helps some of you out there learn how to cope, then more power to you!
We both woke up early to go out this morning. He wore his (stupid) new Sonic hoodie (that I picked out, lol), and I wore my skinny jeans and green sweater with the boots I had received from my mother. We wanted to spend the whole day as best we could, so we got started immediately.
So we went to Panera, to find out that they weren’t serving any type of soup/bread bowl until after
11 a.m. Damn it haha. So George got a cherry pastry and I got a cinnamon roll. It was good, but I missed the soup.
We cleaned up and went to Circuit to try and find things to buy, since everything was on sale. I found some movies, but decided against them because I still get them cheaper some place else (Aeon Flux, Hulk, and WallE). We browsed around, still looking at things like RAM cards for George’s computer and TVs. We talked about things for our place, and it made me really happy.
We then went to the mall, just to sit down and wait for the stupid places to open. But that’s okay, I got to rest with George for a bit. Hot Topic opened, and we went inside to drop off my application and get my new Pikachu purse (dark dark blue with yellow and blue lightning bolts, a big pikachu on the front). It made me so happy, it was amazing. It had a stain on it, but they gave it to us for an extreme discount. That made my day. We went over to RAVE and I got a few new undershirts, then over to the candy shop to pick up my mom some pralines.
After that, we went to the beach. It was amazing. We parked and took a 40 minute parking pass, and then went to walk. We got to the edge of the water and started walking against the wind. The sand was beautiful. When the wind blew, it made ripples of the sand that was blowing, and it looked like the ocean in the sand. We continued to walk, and found some shells and drift wood. After that, we chased a huge group of seagulls. There were some black and white ones with huge orange and black bills, they were cool.
We clambered back into the car to get warm, before trying to head back into town to eat more Panera. However, we ran into so much traffic that we were unable to (carriage drivers, trash trucks, cops). His mother told him to come home NOW, so George had to leave with my tearful goodbye. He told me that it wouldn’t be for long, and Erica helped reiterate this point. It still hurts, but I’m coping. I took a bath to try to calm myself, and then talked to my mom. She was comforting, as Erica was trying to be after her.
So I’ve decided to write down all the days I’ve spent with George. Every time he comes or I see him, I’ll write about it. Make every day beautiful, and more meaningful. I think this will be my coping device.
Enjoy!
